Further Explanation...

I just wanted to add a little explanation to yesterdays post...

I probably should have mentioned that what I copied over from Scott's blog was only part of his story. It was a small part of a whole post that happened to get to me when I read it(Sorry Scott). 

I would also like to throw out that I am not a crazy mess. For the most part... I AM okay with our daily grind. Justin is happy and neither of us spend our afternoons at a poor pitiful me party crying our eyes out. We do ignore diabetes in our life until its time to deal with it throughout the day(or night). But no matter what you wish... sometimes it can get the best of the best of us. And the main point was that... it's okay.

Having a rough couple of days doesn't mean I choose to live in sadness. It doesn't mean that I drag Justin down with me... I certainly do not. My feelings are not, nor will they ever be, his burden to carry. They are my own.
It just means I need to get it out in order to keep truckin. It's how I re-boot. It helps ME to get all MY bottled up emotion out. It helps ME stay positive for Justin and lift him up when diabetes stops playing fair.


I think this time of year is somewhat tough for me because this is when it all started. I can look back at pictures from 4 years ago and visably see the weightloss that should have been a clue to what was coming... but I didn't see it. So pile that on top of the vomiting due to a high bg's and broken pudding promises(whole other story)
among a few other things and it got to me; and for a short time I allowed it.

Now I can move on.

Blindness...

February Photo Challenge... day 8

Today's challenge is the "sun".

Staring at the sun feels a lot like your child being diagnosed with a life long illness - everything goes white. It takes a period of time for you to begin to refocus and even then your vision is weak at best.

You squint your eyes, rub them, close them tight; as they water from the burning. The blindness of it all is scary, but eventually we DO start to see again.

Here's to finding our way out of the blindness. 

Five Question Friday...

NaBloPoMo... day 29

To learn more about 5QF click HERE

1. Vow renewal ceremonies-yay or nay?

Depends on what day you ask me. Today would be a big fat negatory! If I had the chance to run, I just might. Then, I wouldn't take the chance of going to jail for attempted murder(or something of that nature). Explanation: My husband has been on vacation this week... I just LUV him when he's all in my biz-nezz!!!


2. What sound/s annoy you the most?
I can't STAND to hear people eating. It seriously makes me sick to my stomach and want to smack them.

The beeping of the fire alarm when the battery needs to be changed... I mean COME ON! Does it HAVE to ALWAYS go dead in the middle of the night?!?!

One more thing, the sound boys make when they pretend to fly airplanes... don't know what it is... I just can't block that one out.



3. If you had to pick, would you have only all boys, or only all girls for kids?
Lets weigh our options...
Girls:
Cons...                              
-They wear your shoes         
-They steal you makeup
-They act just like you
-They get girly-tudes and PMS

 Pros...
-Eventually, you get to wear their shoes
-You get to torture them with nicknames like "scara" when you catch them stealing your make up.
-You see yourself in them and its funny
-You get to prove that you are the QUEEN of the "girly-tude"
-They dance and sing with you while your driving
-They shop with you

Boys:
Cons...
-They make noises... see above
-They pee on the toilet seat(and the floor)
-They like Lego's and it hurts when you step on them
-They.Know.Everything! And they learndid it on da science channel(or maybe Discovery)
-There's the whole "snakes and snails and puppy dog tails" thing

Pros...
-A little boy LOVES his mama more than anything!
-They back up their rotton-ness with a whole lotta sweet-ness
-They will catch the lizards in the house for you

This is a tough one. I guess I'd have to go with the boys... I really don't like lizards.

 

4. Do you believe in alternative medicine?
If I did wouldn't Justin be cured by some root wart mushroom potion by now?


5. Would you take a family member's children and raise them if they needed it?
Absolutely! Wouldn't I want the same for my kids?


And now for last weeks "extras"... WARNING! We are still talkin "HO Shoes"!

Alexis says "where the stripper shoes the reason behind....oh man I don't think I can finish the question..." the question is, Alexis, were YOUR stripper shoes the reason behind not being able to finish that question? 

Andrea says "I have been totally talking about getting a tattoo on my foot too!! It is going to simply say HOPE, but kinda feminine with a flower or something attached!!!" I like that idea!

I found this one... its pretty cool
Just need to add the flower

There was one I saw(of course I can't find it again) That had a saying about walking. I wish I would have saved it.


Reyna asks "Will said foot tat" be visible while you don your stripper shoes? Or will frequently mentioned, joked about, worn HO Shoes cover the "at some time in your life foot tat"? The "at some time in my life foot tat" will be totally visible. Dude... I wear Ho shoes... do you think I would be worried about covering a tat?


Amy says "my answer to that first one wouldn't have been appropriate for my family-friendly blog"
Dear Sweet Amy! You can tell us here... I think I threw "family friendly" out the window a long time ago.


Sarah says "you seriously crack me up!" Yeah! Sometimes I crack ME up too!


Meri has a few!!
Did Reyna just say Ho shoes? I believe that's an affimitive! I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't read it myself


Did Reyna just call you a Ho? Oh shit!! I think she did


Are you going to just sit there and take that? I think Reyna could kick my ass... are you going to back me up Meri?


Does Reyna know that Ho Shoes is my new favorite phrase? I dunno! Imma gonna asks hur bout dat!


Do you both know that I love you? Awe shucks!!!

Did YOU know

That it! You guys let me off easy this week.
Happy Friday!!!

THE GUESSING GAME...

A FEW WEEKS AGO I WAS READING... (SHOCKING I KNOW).


I WAS GETTING ALL CAUGHT UP ON MY FAVORITE D PEEPS WHEN I CAME ACROSS THIS POST BY NICOLE.


YOU SEE... JUSTIN DOESN'T ALWAYS FEEL HIS LOWS. MOST OF THE TIME HIS ACTIONS ALERT ME(OR HIS TEACHERS) TO A POSSIBLE "PROBLEM".


THING IS... I OFTEN HEAR PWD'S SAY THAT THEY KNOW WHAT THERE NUMBERS ARE BEFORE THEY EVEN CHECK.


WHY CAN'T WE(MEANING JUSTIN) DO THIS? IF WE(JUSTIN) COULD... MAYBE WE(OH, YOU KNOW WHO I MEAN) WOULD CATCH IT DROPPING WHEN IT HITS 80 RATHER THAN 39. JUST SAYIN!


SO... AS I AM READING NICOLE'S POST~ SHE TELLS ABOUT A GAME SHE PLAYS WITH CARA. IN THIS GAME, THEY WOULD ASSES HOW SHE FEELS AND GUESS THE NUMBER OF HER BLOOD SUGAR BEFORE SHE TESTED. GENIUS!! WHY CAN'T I THINK OF SUCH THINGS??


THIS WOULD MAKE JUSTIN HAVE TO THINK ABOUT HOW HE FEELS AND MAYBE HELP HIM START RECOGNISING THE FACT THAT HE'S DROPPING BEFORE HE'S TO THE POINT WHERE SOMEONE ELSE HAS TO NOTICE FOR HIM... RIGHT?


TONIGHT... WE FINALLY TRIED IT. HE CAME IN THE ROOM AND SAID HE "FELT FUNNY" ABOUT 30 AFTER DINNER.

ME~ HOW DO YOU FEEL?
J~ JUST FUNNY
ME~ LET'S GUESS, WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR NUMBER WILL BE?
J~CAN I HAVE A RANGE? (SMART KID RIGHT?)
ME~ SURE!
J~ UM! FIFTY TO FIFTY NINE
ME~ SO IN THE 50'S?
J~ YES!

CLICK-POKE-BEEP... 51


NICE! (NOT THE NUMBER... JUST THE FACT THAT HE WAS RIGHT).


LATER ON, BEFORE BED, WE PLAYED AGAIN.


JUSTIN'S GUESS... 100-120 (HIS RANGE WAS A LITTLE WIDER THIS TIME)


ACTUAL RESULTS... 100 EVEN.


DAMN... HE'S KINDA GOOD AT THIS, I THOUGHT. SO WHY CAN'T HE FEEL HIS LOWS?? CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN THAT TO ME?


ANYWAYS... THINKING I WAS ALL SMART(WELL, NOT ME, NICOLE) I POSTED WHAT HE DID.


WELL SHIT!!!!


ALL KINDS OF D MAMAS DO THIS...  HALLIE, MERI, HEIDI, HEATHER, KRIS, JUST TO NAME A FEW. WHO KNEW? AND WHY DIDN'T ANYONE LET ME IN ON THE SECRET? OR AM I JUST REALLY THAT SLOW? (DON'T ANSWER THAT!)


ALL I CAN SAY IS... THANKS FOR LOOKING OUT FOR ME NICOLE!!


AND... TO SHARE THE LUV. HERE I AM. RE-POSTING ABOUT "THE GAME". JUST IN CASE THERE IS ONE MAMA LEFT THAT IS SLOWER THAN ME ;0) ANYONE? ANYONE?

 ON A SIDE NOTE: HE WAS ACTUALLY HAPPY TO PLAY THE GAME... IT MADE ME SMILE. IT'S NOT OFTEN YOU GET TO HAVE FUN WHERE D IS CONCERNED. GOTTA TAKE WHAT YOU CAN GET.


LETS JUST HOPE THAT THIS HELPS IN OUR QUEST TO CATCH OUR JUSTIN'S LOWS. 

to twit or not to twit...

I have been dodging the Twitter game for a long time. I signed up once, way over a year ago, but I deleted the aaccount because I just didn't get it and I honestly didn't have the desire to learn. Besides, I didn't need anything else to occupy my time.

WELL, a few weeks ago I took the plunge again and became a "twit". I was still lost at first until Reyna splained a few things. NOW, I am ALMOST hooked. I think I like it because I can post freely without the worry of family or high school friends seeing everything... it's rather nice to be a little less filtered.

I have been pleasantly surprised to make some new connections in the DOC, but it was more than comforting to see the familiar faces of  some of my favorite D Mama's(you guys rock btw!).

One of the connections I have made is with Bob Hawkinson (not that he has any clue who I am) who writes Living out Loud with Diabetes and also The Joy of Diabetes.

I found Living out Loud with Diabetes through Twitter and it caught my attention because it had a few funny post such as: Top 10 worst ways to check your bloodsugar,  You might be a diabetic if and Things I have learned from the movies (this last one has nothing to do with D, but it is good for a chuckle).

Then as I was trying to google the website directly, I came across The Joy of Diabetes and decided to peak at a few posts. I learned that you can use a Ziploc baggie to waterproof your CGM just in case it falls in the toilet :) YES, it CAN happen!
Then... I came across a post that made me smile. Most of the time us D-Mama's are not noticed so I thought sharing this would be nice...

The Mothers of JDRF..on a mission :)  by Bob Hawkinson

Small world, I spoke with one of my clients who wanted us to sponsor tshirts for a walk a thon they were having on their property for JDRF. I was given a phone number to call and spoke with the lady in charge who was the mother of little Kaylan who has been diabetic since age 2.
I had to laugh as I always love talking to the Moms at JDRF because they absolutely get things done. High energy and on a mission to find a cure, a solution, or an improvement in their childs life.
You know who they are...they are the one on every committee, getting 5x more stuff done than everyone else.
God Bless the Moms.....

I thought this was sweet and it felt good to know that not ALL of out craziness goes unseen :)
Thank you Bob!

At a glance, Living out Loud with Diabetes seems like a positive, informational and sometimes comical place to "hang" so go check out.

AND... if your a "twit" too, come find me on Twitter @rockindmom. I'd LUV to "tweet" ya!!!! hehehe!